Friday, July 21, 2006
The HR manager sent out today the company-wide announcement about my impending depature. In the year or so I've been at the company I've read plenty of these e-mails. Even though I expected mine to come, it was still a bit of a shock to read it.
I had to read it over twice today. I couldn't actually believe the message was about me. Did I really give my notice a week ago? Wait, did I actually quit my current job to go to EA? It was a very sobering reminder that I indeed chose to end my tenure at the company.
As with most things, it's the people that I will miss the most. This was clear to me after the e-mail got sent out. Though some people got the news days before, a lot of people didn't find out until today. One such person came to my desk with this sad and slightly shocked look on his face.
I explained to him it was a difficult decision but it was something I felt I had to try.
"Well, I'm going to miss you... you were my first real 'friend' at the company, if I could use that word."
Hearing that just made me feel crappy inside.
"Of course you can use that word, I'm proud to be your friend."
Another person came up to me later and asked me where I was going. We chatted about the details for a few minutes. I think some people are just curious.
This isn't the first job I've quit but this is certainly the most weird I've felt about quitting. One job I was absolutely ecstatic about leaving. When I quit my testing job, I was really excited about going to grad school. This time around, it ain't so fun.
One other guy told me he didn't even blink twice when other people left but he said when I leave, I'll be missed. Yeah, hearing stuff like that doesn't exactly make my heart sing with joy.
I hope next week it gets a bit easier.
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